every day seems to be kind of a repeat of the other. i'm doing the same thing. work, sleep, computer, food, work, etc. i can't believe my life has really come to this. i realized the other day that these are all very much wated days that i'll never get back again. that since i didn't do that one thing that one day i can't ever do it again. well, to a point. it makes me want to do so much more with my life but this military thing is holding me back and preventing me from doing anything meaningful with it. i guess i can wait another year and get out and go to college and get a high paying job and raise a family and do all those things i've wanted to do all of my short little life. it's just gonna be hard. ugh, i need to go back to bed.